NOT MY HOUSE.. anymore!!

.Have your ever seen a full stop before a sentence? My life had seen one. It seems that my life has ceased in one moment in past days. I mean we are living in the same house which is not ours anymore. We haven’t find the next house because we are afraid that if sell deed creates some problem then we would be in big trouble. Now I guess that time is about to get over and now its high time that me and my family comes out our comfort zone, think and prepare for the change.

Wish me luck and I know my dear God is always there with me. I am relying on somethings and I have full faith in God’s decision.

Last week was very low say rock bottom and same was I. The whole house finding problems, the comfort zone problems, health problems and many more genres of problems. Today was a great day. Thanks to God. He has shown me great path and alternatives. HE is great. I know HE is always there for me. Thanks dear God for taking burden off my chest. Now I can sleep and be happy.

I learned many new things today. It is like a new beginning.. a new ray of hope. I hope I can come upto everyone’s expectations and above all upto my own expectations.

Need your prayers

Cya

I can’t bear all this anymore. I can’t see my parent’s sad eyes and expressions of helplessness. I just don’t want to leave this house… uff!! I slept and secretly cried the whole day, my dad was by my side, resting his hands on my back to make realize that everything is well and inshallah will be well too. Why do I still expect so much from them and add to their problems?! Time will heal for sure.

On side we all are very happy because this will bring many good things in our life but as the law of nature is, we also have to bid goodbye to some things and on the other hand tolerate some stupid stuff too. I can imagine the future but can’t see it fully. There are so many things to do and so less time.

Everyone’s prayers needed

Thanks and cya soon!

Money will give me a flat and some more money which can I save for future. But is this good enough in a substitute of a house and the memories? Will it bring some more respect? Whateva it is I am really thankful.

I guess there is no solution to one problem. I know it wont get solved until I myself get a full time job. But studies are much more important right now, without which job will not even pay me something. I am so frustrated rite now. I mean this house was meant for sale just to solve problems but now more problems are evolving day after day.

I hope everything ends well. I know God is with me so no need to worry but then why this mind doesn’t understand?

I have learned a new word today ‘COMPROMISE’.. I hated it but…..

Ahh!! Finally the problem is over. Is it.. new problem have now occupied my sanity. What to do with the cash inflows? Where to outflow, where to invest? I don’t want to leave my neighboorhood rather locality. WIll I get a decent house on rent? Will my conditions improve? Ohh so many questions and yours truly clueless is clueless about it. When I resume to think about it, my mind gets numb.

Why? That was the question in the first post. Why I knew I have to leave the home? The answer is that we are a joint family which doesn’t live together but functions like a joint family. One house, one real owner and one extra owner i.e. my dad. The house has 50-50 share and input from both the ends. Now one day you gotta have to separate. Separate not to offend anyone but happily and mutually just because the times have changed and maybe priorities too. I didn’t wanted to do this and you know why but I had to! There was no choice. What the money I or my family(no-longer joint partnership in home) will get, will give me? Keep tuned in to know.