NOT MY HOUSE.. anymore!!

Life is treating me very well. I love the house, area and I enjoy peace. All thanks to God.

God is great. I have moved to my new house.. infact I should say mend my family, and we have by graqce of God started liking it too. I hope that we will have a nice and happy stay here and soon we weill buy our own house. May God give me strenght to be happy and make others happy. Thanks a millon God, thanks a million! Without you it wouldn’t have possible, without you we wouldn’t have been able to pass this tough time. And thanks for the camera too by which I was able to capture the space where I had a wonderful childhood and great memories, a space which now doesn’t exist. Now I can say WHAT IS IMPORTANT.. its not about the house, its all about the home.. the family that I love so much. Thanks again God, thanks again for everything

God is showing us path and in between he changes our route just to delay.. delay so we get better opportunities, so we can have things which are better for us in long run, so we can’t regret. Regretting is never an option, if it is then it should always be ignored because I know and I completely believe that whatever HE chooses for us is always for our own betterment and I have complete trust on my dear God. God has given us high hopes, HE has shown us a great way and HE will lead, HE will guide and only HE will sail us through this time. God we want your help. Thanks for everything that you have done and that you will doing You are very kind!!

Last was kinda hard and I was more harsh as compared to the circumstances. No flats are available in the appartments where I wanted to shift. My parents want to rent a house because they aren’t used to living in small spaces but then it will make our monthly budgets higher about which I am highly concerned as we aren’t that financially well. On the top of it I have exams and I can’t prepare for that. My uncle has been so manipulative and selfish that I can’t even tell you but its okay.. time will tell everyone. I am really sad and feel myself helpless when I see my parents. One of my parents has gone into deep depression as this person have suffered so much in life and no love no soul to support him except God and the immediate family but can’t see it.

Now God everything is upto you. We trust you completely, please guide us. We desperately and urgently need your help. Every other talk is in between us which I won’t share here

.Have your ever seen a full stop before a sentence? My life had seen one. It seems that my life has ceased in one moment in past days. I mean we are living in the same house which is not ours anymore. We haven’t find the next house because we are afraid that if sell deed creates some problem then we would be in big trouble. Now I guess that time is about to get over and now its high time that me and my family comes out our comfort zone, think and prepare for the change.

Wish me luck and I know my dear God is always there with me. I am relying on somethings and I have full faith in God’s decision.

Last week was very low say rock bottom and same was I. The whole house finding problems, the comfort zone problems, health problems and many more genres of problems. Today was a great day. Thanks to God. He has shown me great path and alternatives. HE is great. I know HE is always there for me. Thanks dear God for taking burden off my chest. Now I can sleep and be happy.

I learned many new things today. It is like a new beginning.. a new ray of hope. I hope I can come upto everyone’s expectations and above all upto my own expectations.

Need your prayers

Cya

I can’t bear all this anymore. I can’t see my parent’s sad eyes and expressions of helplessness. I just don’t want to leave this house… uff!! I slept and secretly cried the whole day, my dad was by my side, resting his hands on my back to make realize that everything is well and inshallah will be well too. Why do I still expect so much from them and add to their problems?! Time will heal for sure.

On side we all are very happy because this will bring many good things in our life but as the law of nature is, we also have to bid goodbye to some things and on the other hand tolerate some stupid stuff too. I can imagine the future but can’t see it fully. There are so many things to do and so less time.

Everyone’s prayers needed

Thanks and cya soon!

Money will give me a flat and some more money which can I save for future. But is this good enough in a substitute of a house and the memories? Will it bring some more respect? Whateva it is I am really thankful.

I guess there is no solution to one problem. I know it wont get solved until I myself get a full time job. But studies are much more important right now, without which job will not even pay me something. I am so frustrated rite now. I mean this house was meant for sale just to solve problems but now more problems are evolving day after day.

I hope everything ends well. I know God is with me so no need to worry but then why this mind doesn’t understand?

I have learned a new word today ‘COMPROMISE’.. I hated it but…..

Ahh!! Finally the problem is over. Is it.. new problem have now occupied my sanity. What to do with the cash inflows? Where to outflow, where to invest? I don’t want to leave my neighboorhood rather locality. WIll I get a decent house on rent? Will my conditions improve? Ohh so many questions and yours truly clueless is clueless about it. When I resume to think about it, my mind gets numb.

Why? That was the question in the first post. Why I knew I have to leave the home? The answer is that we are a joint family which doesn’t live together but functions like a joint family. One house, one real owner and one extra owner i.e. my dad. The house has 50-50 share and input from both the ends. Now one day you gotta have to separate. Separate not to offend anyone but happily and mutually just because the times have changed and maybe priorities too. I didn’t wanted to do this and you know why but I had to! There was no choice. What the money I or my family(no-longer joint partnership in home) will get, will give me? Keep tuned in to know.

Really tensed? Couldn’t sleep? Couldn’t eat? Couldn’t even think? A major problem has arrived about the agreement.. I hope it gets solved or we will be in great trouble. I have took charge and have been giving ideas to my parents about what to do and what not to do. This is the first time that I have realized that now I am a 20 years old adult. Lets see what eventually happens. Will tell you the answer of Why question stated in the previous post in next post because I am in no position to think and write such things at this moment of mess.